Monday
Jun252007
I Am Mary Clayton
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Jun 25, 2007 at 4:18 AM
Jun 25, 2007 at 4:18 AM I haven't been sleeping well lately. Tonight I slept for a couple of hours maybe and now I'm up. Even though I'm really, really tired I can't go back to sleep.
I'm reading Eat, Pray, Love. It is soooooooo good. If you haven't read it, you must run out and buy it now.
Anyway, I'd take my Sonata, but I've been trying not to take it because I don't want to become addicted. I got addicted to Xanax once and it wasn't pretty, but that's a story for another book. Back to the Sonata, I find that the more I take it, the more difficult it becomes to fall asleep without it. Actually... I haven't been sleeping well since I stopped taking it. Maybe this means I already am addicted.
Crap.
I'm a junkie. I am Mary Clayton.
Reader Comments (9)
Karyn:
You have my sympathy---I have had some sleepless nights here in the Midwest lately as well. I catch myself faling asleep at my desk midday because I'm not well rested.
Steve
I totally want to know what it's like to get addicted to Xanax cuz I can find myself doing that someday. In the meantime, I am trying to wean myself from my Effexor.
Karyn,
Are you getting any exercise?
I have Ambien..but I hate taking it because it totally makes me want to eat. My husband takes the Ambien CR and doesn't seem to get up and eat anymore, he sleeps like a baby. 20 mins of tv and the laptop and he's toast..out like a light.
Manic mom... I started having panic attacks every time I didn't take it. For no reason.
Anonymous... I stopped exercising and need to start again. Part of the reason I can't sleep is stress, and I know exercise would help with that as well.
I've been taking benadryl to sleep for about 5 years. Every night. If I dont take it, I can't sleep at all. I did take Ambien once, a sample, don't remember which Ambien but it made me feel crazy! It says to take it and go right to sleep cause it does something to you. It imobilizes your body or something or shuts off a signal in your brain so you sleep. So I took it and laid there, feeling like I was unable to move anything and all crazy. I got such a migrain from it too. Worst experience ever. I did take it the next night, dont ask me why, I'm crazy, and slept SO well. It really puts you out. But if you dont try to fall asleep right away it's an awful feeling with that pill.
Anyway I meant to say I am happy to hear that Eat, Pray, Love is that good! :) I will be getting it now!
I used to have issues sleeping and exercise definitely does help.
I used to work out early in the morning and then by bedtime I'm so exhausted I just pass out.
I don't have time now to get up early enough to go in the morning (well, I guess I do but I refuse to get up at 4:30 for the gym) and thought that if I worked out at night I'd be too energized to sleep. But...I think that whole, exercise gives you energy, thing is a lie...because when I exercise at night I come home relaxed and pass out.
So either way...it helps.
You're welcome for the probably way too long babble.
please please please never joke about becoming addicted to xanax. it will be a lifelong fight. you will throw up blood, become dillusional, and lie compulsively...just to start. I lost the love of my life to that crap...
ps - interesting though b/c I too am reading eat.love.pray in healing from the loss that drug has destroyed my soul.
I wasn't joking. I just caught it at an early enough stage so that it didn't become a real problem. I did develop a physical dependency on it, similar to what other people who have become dependent on it have said... I started to take it for the occasional panic attack, and I started to have panic attacks more frequently when I wouldn't take it. I felt as if I was going to have a seizure when I didn't take it, so I had to start shaving pills to wean myself off of it.
I feel for you and what you went through. The person you are talking about obviously had a much more serious problem than I ever did, but still, it's terrible.
Good luck and I hope you find peace and happiness.